Headed the right direction!

Okay, things are looking up! I haven't blogged in a while cause I have just felt so darn down. (I am sure TOM had NOTHING to do with it!) But I have had 2 kick-butt workouts this week burning more than 900 calories each and my diet has been impeccable! I am trying to be REALLY good this week because we will be away for the whole week of the 4th and it will be hard to be on a diet...though I am really going to try to do good! I know it won't be perfect, but I can do pretty good I think!

The Biggest Loser competition has been pushed back due to the holiday, until the end of July. Thus, giving everyone a chance to recover from their respective vacations! I am really happy about this. I actually have a chance to win now! I can do it! I may not win, but I would love to lose 10 more pounds! (wouldn't that be great?!) I may be shooting it high, but I can try, right? So, on to the races!

I SUCK!

New pics of the kids in their 4th of July duds!

Okay, okay. I know it has been a while since I blogged. The truth is, I have fallen off of the wagon. I have been anticipating a visit from TOM and it has been torture! I have found it so hard to diet! My body has been craving all sorts of awful foods and I have been obliging its every desire! It is so frustrating and it seems to be a never ending cycle! Why can't I just diet and get the weight off without having these days (sometimes weeks) where I overindulge and feel completely guilty?!

I have also been slacking at the gym! I have gone to about 4 days a week and I have really been getting lax with the cardio. However, I have kept up my weight training, no problem. I think a lot of my problem is that my gym partner has had to take a break due to a personal matter. Having a buddy to work out with (especially for cardio) really helps.

Now, don't get me wrong, I haven't gained, but just not lost either! I don't know why I feel like a failure. And when I get like this, I have a hard time pulling myself up and getting back on track! I am losing motivation! Quickly!

Well, we had our official weigh in and I was sorely disappointed! My results were only a 2 pound loss and a .5% loss of body fat! Now, every scale (home and at the gym) I have been taking the body fat measurements on says I have lost 3% body fat. The only thing I can attribute it to is that I had just come from a very hard 2-hour workout and maybe it made a difference on the scale?! As you all know I have been doing Body For Life for the preceeding portion of the Biggest Loser competition, but the weigh in made me realize that if I want to win the $$ I am going to have to do something else (just until the end of the competition), so I decided to finish it off with the Weight Watchers program. I WILL NOT win on the BFL and I want the cash bad! So, if I drop a few pounds before I start BFL again...what will it hurt?

The only thing I hate about the Biggest Loser is that she moved the last official weigh in until July 9. Not the morning of July 4! This sucks becuase I am sure I am not the only one who is going to be out of town or celebrating to some degree and I know I don't want to weigh in AFTER I have been on VACATION for a week! Uggh!

Well, I think that is all for now. Maybe in a week I will post some new photos, but I am just not feeling it right now. I don't want to see what I look like in a state of bloat in my bikini! ;) If i am telling the complete truth, I have been putting off the pics AND writing in the blog! I know I have been taking steps backward and I didn't want everyone to disappointed in me! I know some of you look to me for motivation, but sometimes I need it too! However, since making myself write this today, I feel better. Maybe it will be just what I needed to get on track. If nothing else, I feel better. And isn't that what it is all about?

Week 6...

Well, this weekend wasn't too bad. We had friends come in from out of town and we went out and had a cheat meal at (of all places) the WAFFLE HOUSE! And let me tell you, I was BAD! Then I was at my mom's house on Sunday, and had a piece of cake and the potatoes from dinner had a bunch of butter on them! Yum. So I let my cheat day be a couple of meals over the course of 2 days.

My goal of going to the gym 5-6 times last week was just not to be I don't think! My ankles have been so bad! It has really sucked! When we went out on Saturday night they were so swollen! I wore some platform wedges out which I was sure that I was going to regret. But, oddly enough, Sunday morning my ankles did NOT hurt at ALL! That is too weird!?! Since they are feeling better, I am going to try the BodyAttach class again and see how it goes. So, that is the plan. If they still hurt, then I will just keep trying it until I can complete the whole class! I can only imagine that building up the exercise on my ankles will make them stronger gradually.

Well, Wednesday is the beginning of the 6th week of my BFL challenge. I can't believe I have been on this diet for 6 weeks! And, I have been pretty good. I mean we are all going to have some bad days, but instead of quitting, I have just kept on keeping on. I am notorious for going on a diet and letting 1-2 bad days be so discouraging that I just give up on the diet all together! I am really getting results too! I am going to post some new pics in the next couple of days for those of you who are interested! I know I can be better, though. I am going to really try to regroup myself and finish this challenge with a bang! I am committing to not going out until the end of the challenge (which will be the week of July 4th). And also committing to going to the gym like I am supposed to since my ankles feel so much better! And if for some reason I can't go, I am going to do a video at home (if I can get my DVD player to work)!

I have been conteplating starting to run. I am not sure if I can (ankles) or if I will be dedicated enough to do it, but it is something I am thinking about. We will see.

This week is the official 1/2 way weigh-in for the Biggest Loser Blogger competition. I am sure I prob wont be in the lead this week, but I will be by the end of the competition! I know it! I have been measuring myself and stuff, but I am excited to make my progress "official"! I am also excited to see where I stand in the competition. That is on Wednesday, so I will update you then~!

I hope you all have a great start of the week and finish it off with a bang. I am going to try to do that myself! So here we go....week 6!

Started off not so good, but getting better.....

I am going to have to just call this past week a bust and move on! Besides hurting my ankles and ruining my diet with the Memorial Day weekend fare, I only made it to the gym about 3 times instead of the 5-6 times that I would normally do. And to top it all off Charlie had a virus and was running a fever on Monday, so I wasn’t able to make it to the gym on that day, but I did go yesterday morning (Tues) to the gym and got a really good lower body workout! Also, my diet has been perfect this week though! I am still battling my ankles. I really don’t know what to do about them. I have been taking it easy on the cardio, but they still hurt! I have got to get over this so I can win the Biggest Loser contest! I REALLY want to win! Especially since the leader was posted and it was not ME! ;) There are still 5 more weeks left in the contest, so I still have a great opportunity to pull ahead (although I suspect that I am close to the top on the list)!

So, as far as goals go for this week, Instead of making a new goal, I am going to just try to go back to my old goal that I didn’t follow through on. I am going to go to the gym at least 5 times this week. And I am going to make my diet perfectly clean (so far so good). I have been perfect on my diet, but I have been calculating calories and I have been about 100-300 calories over what I would like it to be, so I am going to try to keep that down too. (Even though I have still been eating “CLEAN”!)

I will be posting some new pics next week for the results from week 4, though I don’t expect to see any changes since I haven’t been able to work out like I wanted to, but I will still do them! The only reason I would be afraid that I wouldn’t win this competition would be that the diet I am on is not geared at losing “weight”, but body fat and inches and gaining muscle. As a matter of fact, the book says to stay off of the scale because you probably wont see much change on it, but your clothes will fit better and you will be more tone. It actually says that my weight might actually fluctuate. I am worried about next weeks ‘mid-way’ weigh in since my weight IS fluctuating! Oh well. I will still LOOK like I lost weight. I am just such a slave to the scale, as I know most women are. We are so worried about that number, right? I wish I could overcome this!

I am starting to have people compliment me and ask if I have lost weight! That is encouraging me! Feels good when people notice! Also, I took my measurements yesterday, and I have lost a total of 9.5 inches! I am starting to see muscle definition in my legs and arms (especially when I work out!) and this is so exciting! We have our “official” mid-way weigh next week as mentioned above, so, I am excited to see how I have done on the “official” scales!

And finally, I have to announce that Lola has said her first words! I have been waving at her and saying ‘bye-bye’ just trying to get her to wave at me, and to my surprise, instead of waving, she actually said “bye-bye”! I thought it was a fluke, but she did it again and again, and then did it to my mom on the phone! She is so darn cute! She also shakes her head when you say “no-no”! Very adorable that girl! Here is a new pic of her and Charlie! Until next time….

Littlest Butterfly....