Dieting Delima

Well today went just as I planned. I actually got up this morning and went to the gym at 6:00 AM! I did my lower body workout and a short warm up. Now, I just have to get up on Thursday and do it again! If I did it one I can do it again! My diet went pretty good until tonight. I worked all day so that helps me to be good, but when I got home I was really hungry. I started by cooking chicken, asparagus and some whole wheat pasta...no problem there, but then I could not help it but I wanted some Peanut Butter! I had 3 tablespoons and a banana! Then I had one stick of a kit kat bar. I know to some this may not sound like much, but it put my caloric intake close to 1800. However, I have had a TON of water! Probably at least a gallon and a half! Hopefully that offset my moments of weekness. I admit I could have done a lot worse, (like eating the WHOLE KING SIZE Kit Kat!), but I still feel guilty for it! The BFL (Body for Life) program is the diet I am on. And no where in the book does it say you have to stick with a certain calorie count, that is just something I am keeping up with. It actually says to eat 6 meals a day combining a protien and a carb at each meal. It is a body builders diet that has a workout program to compliment the diet. Basically, it is meant to burn maximum FAT! Translation: body fat percentage! I shouldnt feel guilty, I just cannot make my brain think that way. This just goes against all diets I have ever been on, but I know it works! I will just keep charging on. Even if I don't win the BIGGEST LOSER BLOGGER, I will be tone and buff! I will just work out really hard tomorrow and be extra good tomorrow. I know everyone has those days where you just cannot satisfy your hunger, and today (tonight) was one for me! Okay I am done venting about my frustration over my overeating.....

I have set a goal for myself for this week. I am planning to go the gym 5 days this week. I used to do this all the time without even flinching! I know it is juust going to take some adjusting to this new way of life again to make it a permanent part of my life...AGAIN. It is just sortof frustrating to start over at (almost) square one. I am so proud to have my beautiful daughter, but I am not a fan of what being preggers for a second time did to me! I had worked so long and hard to lose 60 pounds! That is a lot to accomplish! Now I feel like I am starting over. Kindof discerning. But I have to start somewhere. So here I go.....

Well, I think I have covered it for today. Thanks for checking in!